Rumah yang Ramai

Assalamualaikum.. :)

Hi all. Well it's been a long time since i pour my words here. Everything keeps on rolling. Memories on each day will be forgotten just like wind without any permanent scar to rely back on. 

It's been a month since new semester re-open. And a month since me and my fellas crash on our new apartment. A simple, yet homey apartment. At least we have place to sleep and fight with storm. Maka beramai-ramai la kami dalam satu apartment. Facing 5 heads, different character, attitude and style. There, learn to deal with everything. 

bukan rumahku.

Hopefully, everything will always be great. Yet, life with no problem is no life at all. 

if there's a close 'friend' remove u as a friend on facebook. what does that mean?

if there's a close 'friend' remove u as a friend on facebook. what does that mean?

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If u fall in love, jadi macam orang gila tak? termenung, senyum sorang2 gitu?

If u fall in love, jadi macam orang gila tak? termenung, senyum sorang2 gitu?

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Jangan nak ikut rasa sangat.

    Entri ni dikarang ketika aku berjaga seorang diri pada malam hari.

   Suasana pada jam 2.30 pagi ketika ini memang sunyi sepi. Hanya bunyi ketukan-ketukan jari jemari ku yang seolah menari di atas papan kekunci komputer riba, beserta deruan kipas yang sarat dengan debu dan segala kotoran degil. Kedua rakan sebilikku sudah lama ke alam mimpi. Sudah di bulan barangkali. 

    Kenangan di kampung halaman menerjah minda ku. Kadang seolah tidak mahu lesap dari kotak fikiran. Bayang wajah abah, ma, dan adik-adikku bermain di setiap ceruk minda. Mataku mula kabur dek basahan air masin dari kelenjar mata. Hati dan perasaan yang seolah tidak mampu lagi menanggung beban rindu yang terlampau. Betapa beratnya rasa menanggung bebanan rindu ini. Ah, tak mampu ku tahan lagi.

Cukup! Cukup!  Cukup menyeksa diriku lagi. Biar aku.....

menyanyi dulu..

Called mama tadi. Tapi tak angkat. Dah tidur barangkali. Malam ni rasa sangat stress. Stress = tertekan.
Suddenly I felt like I'm doing something wrong. Macam tak happy je buat apa-apa sekarang. And even more stress, when I don't even know why it is wrong. Or what I want to do to feel good.

Ya allah, permudahkan jalan bagiku.

p.s: doa ni di ambik dari sini

p.s.s: homesick ke macam ni? :O

p.s.s.s: rupanya entri ni tak di post pada malam kejadian. so careless.

Dear Natalia.

I am independent. Egoistic. And self-centered. Heheh. *pengakuan berani mati.

Because sometimes u just be it. Especially when u feel ignored or annoyed or provoked by something. And also when u're not appreciated after sacrificing. It's not that u do a good deed for repayment. No! But at least, don't insult something sincerely done. 

But sometimes, mesti nak rasa kita sorang je betul kan? Well, learn from mistakes.

Berpusat pada kaki sendiri = independent.

Dear Natalia (bukan nama sebenar), 

I am here to tell u that I am sorry. For anything. Because seriously, I don't know why u behave like that. Or maybe I'm not aware of my mistakes. But please, do tell me my wrongdoings so that I know, and I can try to change. Coz I don't prefer silence as a good lesson.  

Sincerely,
Yana

When In Love.

Its typical . Very typical.
Dup dap dup dap. kenapa kenapa kenapaaaa??

Sakit.. tak tau sakit apa ni.. okey, symptoms are:

1. Stalk ehem2 every single day. no, minute.
2. Do anything to attract ehem2's attention. But when ehem2's attracted, buat-buat tak tau.
3. Find similarities with ehem2. If nothing match, make it!

Well, is it called.. heart attack?

No i don't want heart attack! Not yet at least...

Excellent reader reads excellent text.

It's almost 3 a.m and i can't sleep. A complete day with no achievement really gives a mental burden kan. Like when u're not doing anything but feel too much burden on u. Pelik pulak. Coz when u make urself jobless, the more u think and listing what to-do and what not. Lagi penat der! And finally u'll just duduk-duduk, makan-makan and tv only. Great.

Humm, okey. Let me tell u something.

I love novels. Tapiii.... it might take like a month or two to finish up one. I know. Sooo slow kan? Tapi tak apa. Feel itu penting. hehe. And currently, I'm reading this enigma book: MILLENIUM SERIES. Dah lama dah novel ni keluar, if i'm not mistaken US/UK release since 2009. If u're a  novelover, for sure la dah lama abes baca kan? But this is it... Stieg Larsson trilogy. And tragic part was, Larsson died just a few months before first book was released in Sweden tau. And it was like kebabooommm a first-class novel worldwide.

Review: http://www.stieglarsson.com/Millennium-series

p/s: i'm currently half page on second book. First book dari last year lagi kot. hehe 

sape tak baca rugi BESAAAR.

Harimau Malaya menang. bangga kan kan kan??

Harimau Malaya menang. bangga kan kan kan??

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Island Hopping!

Hi, long time no see. hehe

Now i'm in semester break, after a whole 3weeks of bloody papers in final exam. Killer papers on 1st three days. Mom i'd like to be murdered. Eh eh joke joke. Then after 26/11, independent day! Woohoo~

I got 4 days left to be filled with jalan-jalan and spending my scholarship fund before I get back to KL, and so forth KB. We go shopping, movies, makan-makan, jalan-jalan and all. But too ordinary. Need something more! Then me, Tia, Wid, and Ninim plan to go to the ISLAND! so exciting kan kan kan?

Ngee~

Gasp!

Wid, Yana, Tia~ Ninim photographer.

Sunset view: Jesselton Point.

We go two islands in a day. Pulau Manukan & Pulau Mamutik. Dari pagi sampai petang. Sampai2, terus snorkel ni! Waahhhh, so nice berendam in the salt water! I met Nemo and his family. Careful, they bites. hehe. They live in pink, spongy house. And the house pandai malu-malu bila di sentuh. Coz when I touch it, the house terus menyorok bawah batu. So cute kan? Next time if I go there again, I'll bring pokok semalu la, tanam tepi rumah Nemo. So that they can be friends. Uhuhu, so kind of me. :D

Then, i saw schools of fish. Rombongan makan-makan from one coral to others. They eat the corals, or maybe the algae that lives on the corals. Then I join the rombongan ikut makan-makan sama. The fishes datang betul2 depan goggles ni! so beautiful. Yea, this is my first time kan. Excited la. Huhu.There got papa seahorse also. And rainbow fish, and landak laut, and i saw something panjang2 lembik2. Gamat. Eww, ugly. But a good remedy for sure.

We even go jungle trekking at Manukan! 3++ km only la. With flipflop only. And widya jungle trekking pakai dress. Hahahahaha.. amoi cantek!

End up with makan-makan again at KK. Sangat puas hati!:D

That was really awesome ladies! Pretty like life. :P

Nothing stay.

What comes and stay? Tell me tell me! Like everything will go. Or changing little by little. Even human minds. My mind for sure, changes frequently. Saying white at a time, but black at another time. It's quite normal i'll say. I'll take guys for this case. It's typical for guys who love girls. And vice versa. From the eye to heart. Perempuan cantik lalu, then their eyes like popping out. *woo. Even some of the guys in kopiah (or songkok) will do that. Believe me. Pakcik bas, salesman, librarian, mana-mana pun sama je lah. Eh, perempuan sama jugak. I'm not one-sided kan.

Then some of them, ada yang stick to girls for their own benefit. Parasite in good word. For popularity. Gentleman la kunun kalau baik dengan perempuan. Tunggu saham naik maybe. Sudah boring with this one, jump to another pulak. Apa kah jadahnya semua ini? All these back to basics. Batu loncatan for getting what they want. But if u already got the x-factor, why need other people to make u shine? Dean said, 

You want to jump among the stood, you want to stand among the seated, or you want to just sit among the laid. Your choice.

My tenacity. Hard to come easy to go. Teruk betul. Hangat-hangat taik ayam ni. Kunun nak study hard, the spirit stays for hardly a week then now poof! gone already.

Hey btw, is that wrong of being a different person according to situation?

Orang yang bagai.

Dalam dunia ni, tak kira di pelusuk mana pun, mesti ada juga perangai yang iras-iras. Berbalik pada asal, memang lumrah kejadian. Bukan banyak spesis pun manusia ni. Lelaki dan perempuan jugak. Ada pepatah, "rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain". Betul. Tepat sekali. Excellent. Tapi sejak saya hidup hampir 19 tahun ni, macam-macam jenis orang saya jumpa. Itupun kenalan lah. Bukan orang tak kenal. Bila dah characteristic sama, kadang-kadang muka pun jadi iras-iras (looks similar). When leaping from each state to others; tukar uni kan, proses mengenal orang pun berbagai lah jugak. For instance in a class, mesti ada paling-paling tidak lain dari yang lain. Unique lah pendek kata. :)

The Geek. Everywhere I go, mesti ada golongan ni. Pathetically, some of them mengaku genius! shouldn't be so proud of it.

The Cheerful. Selalunya akan menghiburkan orang. Loud and Popcorn. Kalau dia tak ada, mesti senyap sunyi.

The Hot. Ala, yang trendy, up-to-date. I wish I'm one of them. huhu~

The Ayu. This group must be yang sopan-sopan. Yang malu-malu. Uhuk2. :D

The Genius. Can I say diorang ni diam-diam ubi berisi? Bila ditanya, zup zup zupppp idea.

The Silent. Heheee.. introvert. No comment.

No 13 sial?

Semalam, pagi2 bangun kejar flight ke KL, then terus ke Kota Kinabalu. Naik airplane tambang murah je, AirAsia. Dalam flight ke KL, this time aku dapat seat 14D. Hot seat la ni. Tepi emergency exit la tu. Aku diam dalam flight. Maksud aku tak banyak kerenah la. Tapi mata memang selalu melilau tak tentu arah. Seat ni memang strategik. Selalu duduk tengah je. Kali ni duduk tepi jalan. FA yang lalu ni cantik. Mekap ada la dalam 14-inci. Teringin pulak nak jadi macam dia. :P

Belum sempat aku terbang, ada kes kat seat belakang. Pregnant women yang dah 30 weeks. Sikit lagi nak menetas. Dari apa yang aku dengar time tu, pregnant 28 - 32 weeks tak boleh terbang dah. Kan pressure atas tu rendah. Ayat abang FA, " Ni kalau naik jugak ni, silap-silap boleh terberanak kat atas ni. " Kesian macik tu kena postpone flight dia. 

Eh, back to the mainline. Aku di seat 14. Seat depan adalah seat 12. Habis tu mana seat 13? Umm... puas jugak aku cari. Tapi tak ada. Mungkin engineer dia salah ukur, atau salah label. Tapi bila fikir jaauuuuhhhh, mungkin ada kaitan jugak dengan myths no 13 kan?

Masa kecik2 dulu, naik hotel besar2, pun tak ada floor no. 13. Apa significant dia buat macam tu? Konspirasi kerajaan ke? Atau ada secret floor? Atau ada kes besar yang pernah berlaku pasal floor 13?

Dalam apa yang aku google, No 13 memang ada la myths dia. No 13 dianggap unlucky number. Orang Barat la cakap tu. Superstitious la tu. Tapi dalam Islam, adalah khurafat bagi mempercayai perkara2 tahyul macam ni. Jadi, sama2 lah kita umat Islam, jangan percaya. ok? ^^,

Ini notes semata-mata.

Cerita 1

Cerita 2

p/s: Rasa2 movie Friday 13th ada kaitan jugak?

For display only. ^^,

blue eyes

I got blue eyes. Fake blue eyes actually. Yela, mane ada anak melayu tulen mata biru. Kalau ada pun jaaarrrang. But then, i'm wearing blue contacts, Doesn't mean i wanna be like mat saleh kan. Ada la reason dia. hehe. First, colourless contacs ni leceh la, kalau jatuh susah nak cari. Kalau lupe nak bukak pun tak perasan. Second, confidence. Pakai colour contacts ni orang senang recognize. wee~

Scene 1: LCC Terminal.

This time, aku nak balik kampung. Jumpa mak abah. Kan nak raya kita ni. After check in, letak bag atas security scanner. Terus, aku jalan lalu ikut security punya pintu gerbang tu. Fuh, beraninya aku, dengan gaya Angelina Jolie punya jalan. Tapi tu la, polis2 ni semacam jek pandang. adeh, wut's wrong? kain senget ke? cool2 yana. 

" Pass, IC. " Akak polis tu mintak. Rakan2 sejawatnya yang badan sasa tak ingat tu pun tersengih2. Lain macam jer diorang ni kan. Sekali da dia telek muka aku pastu tengok IC yang gamba darjah 6 tu. Tau ape dia cakap?

" Cantik mata. Mata palsu." Heee.. akak ni memangggg.

Scene 2: Pasar Basah

Pagi tadi. tiba-tiba rajin nak teman mama pegi pasar kan. Yerla, mana tau nanti duit raya lebih ke. Setiap sudut mama singgah amik barang. Bawang putih, bawang merah, sup bunjut, gula, garam, ulam, sayur, buah2, ikan siakap, ikan pari, ikan tut, ikan tit. Nak list memang tak cukup page. Ala macam tak tau. Standard la pegi pasar basah. Tak kan beli laptop. Aku membontoti jua ke mana mama pegi. Sedang asyik aku mengibas ngibas lalat yang singgah atas ikan tu, ada la sorang budak ni. Kepala besar, merah pulak tu. Oh, dia punya helmet da. Mula-mula dia intai. Sekali datang makin dekat. Diteleknya muka aku yang penuh kawah dan gunung berapi ni. Sikit lagi nak terhantuk kat kepala aku yang jugak boleh tahan besar dia. Terus dia tanya,

" Akak pakai kanta ke? Nampak biru la. "

Hee. adeh. lagi skali.

Anyways, blue eyes bring no harm. Peace. ^^,

3,2,1.. HOME!

Ramadhan beransur pergi. But still, tak dapat rasa manisnya ramadhan kali ni. Yea, kemanisan tu tak kan datang kalau tak dicari. hihi. Terawih pun liat ni. Perlu tambah tahap kerajinan barangkali. Nah, now i'm counting days to return home! wee~ balik kampong! \(^,^)/

Dah nak balik ni, assignments really get my nerves on. Bad mindset, yana! hopefully dapat settlekan b4 go back 4 Eid this saturday. Eh alaaa, kat peninsular nanti bukak puasa lambat la! (T.T) sabarrr.

and oh, i cant wait to meet this little cutie! <3<3<3

meet my littlest sis : Baby. Hugs!

bila hati tiada rasa

this is a very tough moment. kata orang, life's like a ball. sometimes rolls up, sometimes rolls down. kalau pandai sepak, masuk gol. kalau tak pandai? kena maki. that's when a pride boomed. Pandai-pandai bawak diri. Either alone, or pair, or group or even satu kampung. There's nothing wrong with walking alone, or eat alone, or lepak-lepak alone. Lain orang lain selera bah. Rambut ja sama hitam kan. Being alone doesn't mean a loner or introvert . i walk alone so that i can meet new people at anytime. simple life feeds better ho?

p/s : sum1 ask me 'y r u always alone? lone ranger or wut?' *ufff :"l

Beyond.

Hari ini, 3 Ogos 2010, genaplah sebulan aku berada di Borneo ni, specifically UMS kampus ceria yang penuh dengan keindahan tangga ni. During this short moment, many many many many things happen. Unexpected tragedy. That changes my pattern of life. Wah, mantap.

Lepas keluar masuk universiti ni, semakin matang pulak. hehe. First uni, UTP. Program : ICT. Paling best. Tapi sempat melepak kejap saja. 5 months. Lepas tu, withdraw, with Petronas scholarship repayment of more or less RM 6630. Then, register buat Science Foundation pulak..kat UM. Paling busy. As busy as a bee. And latest, UMS. Apply medic, result tak ummpph, so kena reject barangkali. Instead i got Electrical & Electronic Engineering offer. Aku jumpa DEAN, emphasize dean tu, try buat rayuan tukar course medic. Tiba2, beliau suggest aku tukar Chemical Engineering. Pulak dah. And i accept. Wah. tough one.so we'll see who's diyana iryani razali in 4 years. ok?

The girl in pink is my lab partner. She's bruneian. Cantik kannn?

p/s : dean's words: "think beyond career prospect!"

photoediting

Intro~! This is Amni, my dearest cousin. She's gourgeous isn't she? tengok kaki laa...Honestly, edit-edit pictures paling bosan tahap gaban. sebab malas nak explore. tapi, there's one short time i saw this one flammable picture, at my friend's tumblr. Gila lawa! she's a gila-camera sort of.hehe..jangan marah yan! i luv u...
And, bila tengok picture tu betul2, tiba2 rasa macam..eh, ni gamba  aku! dan di-edit gila lawa oleh yan, rasa cam..wahhhh, glemer oh! itu jam rasa ringan je badan nak terbang, hidung plak kembang2 sket. bangga kot. Tiba2 hari berikutnya, jiran aku datang. Bersama laptop barunya. cheewah gila grand dia sekarang. Pastu telek2 la potret2 yang ade dalam laptop dia tu. And it's awesome! di-edit dengan ceria dan bernas sekali. Maka itu jam, rasa macam nak blaja photo-editing la pulak. So, kesimpulannya, dengan muka 14-inci tebal, aku mintak copy software photoshop dia. Pandai2 la nak jimat an..pikir nak beli, mana nak kokak duit? nak beli ice-blended singgit depan umah pun suruh adik belanja.
Dalam hati dia ada taman derr..dia kasi aku copy software tu. berbunga sikit hati ni. Pendek cerita, petang tu jugak, blaja klebet2 picture. Adjust sana, adjust sini. Belakang parang kalau di asah lagikan tajam, ye dak? haha.
Kat atas ni gambar hiasan semulut-mulut. ok?

p/s : i wanna learn more about photo-editing.nak cikgu.

it's become harder when it's time to make decision. decide for future. who doesn't? everybody did. i think like doing a list. the good and bad of what i'm going to decide. local or oversea. can or not?

LOCAL

* makan sodappp

* sambut raya dengan family every year.dengar takbir raya (T.T)

* duit senang masuk

* boleh cakap klate

* umm, kucing sape nak bagi makan?

SEBERANG

+ makan apa pun tak tau

+ raya boleh balik ke tak?

+ duit silap2 ari bulan, xsampai. mana tau kapal pecah ker.

+ bahasa apa? bisu la senang.

+ mana boleh bela pet! kang roomate halau.

still, not steady to decide lo. Istikharah. Usaha. Doa. Tawakkal. Sememangnya jalan hidup ni sudah ditentukan yang di atas. Tapi diri sendiri yang mencorakkan hidup. Kan?

Sekadar nama?

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She's gorgeous, isn't she? Entri kali ni, pasal nama. Nama blog ni. gensooprincess. Wut's behind the name? Princess, as we all know, dari zaman jaafar onn lagi da tau dah kan meaning dia ape. Puteri. Kenapa putri? Saya ni anak Queen Latifah ke? oh tidak sama sekali. For real, blog ni siapa punya? saya. Maka secara auto blog ni saya jadikan negeri saya. So, saya kata saya princess kat sini. Halal tu. Anda punya blog, anda la king/queen. Tapi saya muda lagi. Belum nikah. Yakni, dara suci murni. Princess lagi la. Queen tua sangat bunyinya. Aa, the other part, gensoo. Apa tu? japanese word for sure. Saya bukan orang jepun. Melayu asli. pioooorrr kata orang. gensoo maksudnya? bukan gemok, gedik pun bukan. Fantasy. so, kalau cantum-cantumkan, jadila puteri fantasi. Fantasy Princess. Gamba hiasan kat atas ni dijumpai time menelaah gamba2 fantasy princess kat google SE. cantek! (^^,)v


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